Gloom

For the first time in six years I got into a train today, found a place to sit near a window, and then got off. Because I was too paranoid to try sitting still in a claustrophobic place for sixty-five minutes. 

You don't know how important window seats are to me Zonk. I've spent a lot of my life clambering for them and getting pushed against poles, and I've never before let one go. 
When I called Si I was sure I'd be sitting at Marine Drive two hours later waiting for the crowd to thin and my head to clear. But then I called M and decided to get home and took an ac bus. Sketched in the back of one of my fav poetry books for a bit and then sat around for the rest of the two hour trip home. 

I'm home now. And I've never been so depressed before. I'm sure I say that everytime I'm depressed :| I love you all Zonk. What's going on I don't know but I know I love you all. A few days ago I said I'd trade you for a good night's sleep. I lied. I wouldn't. I was desperate then but I couldn't do without you. I hope you all know that.
I will be back in a bit. I mean today. Soon.

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Author: Kirtana K

I paint and make music and blog like a maniac. These days I try to run. But I have chicken legs and lungs the size of two-rupee balloons. I fail. I like pajamas and striped socks and books that read like song and songs that sound like poetry and strangers who read this page. And Maggi when I'm sick or cold or sad or celebrating. They'll find noodles in my veins if ever they cut me open. And potatoes. And maybe a tiny bit of whiskey. I'll be an Unidentified Living Object and they'll put my insides on display. It will be crazy. It will be awesome. It will.

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