on the verge of..uh.
Yesterday i did what i do every day of my life (unless
I'm in college). Woke up. Did nothing. Played guitar. Read. Contemplated on my worthlessness. Got depressed. Contemplated on my worthlessness. Got depressed. Contemplated on my worthlessness.. (note the pattern)
And now, strangely, I have a job. Even more unbelievable, its the first place I walked into. Which goes to show that all you need to make a career is to know people who know people. And so I, with all my negativity, my tendency to undermine myself, my fear of new people and fear of being judged, my deep distrust of the world; and needless to say,my blank c.v.; got employed in under 15 minutes.
Please Note: I'm not maladjusted. I'm a nice person who sucks in most social situations. Actually, I'd even say I'm pleasant.
Anyway, I'm not complaining. No, really.. The whiny tone is the product of habit and a high-pitched voice.
So tomorrow, i wont be contemplating on my worthlessness and getting depressed; or contemplating on my worthlessness and getting depressed. I'll be walking into a supercool fancy office building full of wacky red walls and pierced people. Maybe I'll have fun..
I'm excited. No matter how suspicious i sound. i SWEAR.