Nine days from now, we start with our kitchen renovation.
That’s phase three of the House Project. And it’s going to take a good 15 or 20 days to get done. And that sucks. Because renovation is a bitch. It’s messy and stressful and pain causing and wallet burning. But when it’s done, Zonk, my house will finally be finished.
And that’s something.
I got home at 8 tonight.
That’s a rare thing, Zonk. Because Wednesday is usually Yoga day, and because things have been hectic lately, and because I had to meet a contractor who couldn’t make it after all. I rang the bell and I stood outside until it hit me that the house was empty. My mother and nephews were out and I’d forgotten.
But houses have vibes, you know? Sounds and smells and so on. I have a theory that if you know a house well enough, you can identify it by vibe alone.
I know that I can sense mine. When I stand outside my door on a weekday evening, my house feels like scolding and laughter and weariness and loud TV shows. But I stood there tonight and it felt only still. Which is also rare. And also nice.
And so I dug my key out of my bag and let myself in and lay down on my bed and spent 10 minutes feeling profoundly, uncomplicatedly happy to be home early on a Wednesday night in a house I can read through the door.
It’s just, you meet so many and remember so few. I remember you all.
– Toby Litt
(From ‘I play the drums in a band called okay)
…the love of exhaustion and the exhaustion of love.
– Toby Litt (from ‘I play the drums in a band called okay’)
I’m sitting here on this bench and it’s dark outside this circle of light and there’s stars here. And wind. And I’m reading and I took a break just to tell you that this feels so fucking nice.
I think there should be a rule that everyone should get a standing ovation at least once in their lives.
– from Wonder by RJ Palacio
So I just got done with a massive chunk of stressful work and I have almost one hour to go before yoga. I’ve going to hide out in the old pantry and see if I can actually go one whole hour without anybody noticing I’m gone.